It feels like something foreign to me, having the transition into Fall be so intense. My usual cycle with seasonal intensity occurs in the Spring to Summer phase, which was pretty up there in the rankings this year, however nothing like the Summer to Fall transition we recently experienced. As a Libra, I am pretty great at keeping it all balanced and manageable. Allowing for any of the downturns to be re-routed towards a fully positive direction. Allowing my experiences and the experiences of this around me to be seen through the light, as of late, has been fairly simple for me, but this year in September, the month of my birth, has been incredibly difficult to bear. Last week's energy was no exception as I began the week turning 40 and getting sick with a head cold that would last beyond the week. I learned a few things about me though, seeing clearly where I bend for others despite what I hear my heart saying; how I commit out of fear of rejecting or being rejected despite the urge of feeling overwhelmed. September has truly been about what works for me and what doesn't. It has also been a test of how tough I am and how deep will I dig to make it through the challenges presented that are new and uncharted for me.
Ha! Growing up is a trap, but only if you choose to be held by the things grabbing at you! Much of the last week offered opportunities to create freedom of time, space and emotion and there are those of you who chose to take advantage of it. It remains important to be clear what that freedom is to you, how it feeds your body, mind and soul so that you aren't fooling yourself into false freedom. False freedom is tricky in the sense of the old "Fake it till you make it" mentality. When you commit to faking it, there is some sense of inauthenticity that lingers and for some, the truth can get jumbled around a bit for yourself. Now on the other hand, if you did not choose freedom and instead chose to submit, you might have found yourself along for a ride instead of being in the driver's seat. The difference here being that you chose to allow someone else to pick your freedoms and as you jumped into their flow, you became part of their purpose and not your own. This kind of choice requires clarity in order to exit one flow so you can enter YOUR flow. Getting clear is the trick though; what really allows the sight and insight to trust and honor your truest heart? Well you do of course!! Take time before you make a decision to sit and meditate on the questions that surround it. Be conscious to feel when your mind grabs a hold and tries to make you see the answers on the surface that come right away. Ego has a way of blindsiding you with what you desire irregardless of what actually is. Sink below the surface, notice all the senses activated and being breathed by your body. Connect to the inquiries you have, be clear with your questions and listen for the answers to come. This builds trust through a practice of peace and grounded knowledge.
It is in this trust that you begin to see where YOU resonate and how you can empower yourself to dig deep. Of the challenges you may have encountered last week or all of last month, were you at any point able to see beyond the challenges presented to you? It becomes important to enhance your view, almost like looking through energetic binoculars to see and feel how a situation can be shifted by your ability to access the truth of it. When clarity is false, it is like looking out and seeing a dark blob up ahead moving around. When you get clear, suddenly the view of the blob becomes clear, as if the binoculars are at your eyes and you can see clearly that it is a bear walking the hillside. As this inner sight enhances, you can make a better decision to either find another way or chance walking toward the bear. Of course if the path to the bear is the best provided path to take, now you can prepare yourself for what is to come. You then have a greater understanding that you might have to be very strategic, strong, as well as stand and fight when the time comes. You can also see more clearly some steps to take that alter the path and maybe omit interactions with the bear at all. In a way, you get to see what you are made of.
It seemed that there was some relief with the Black Moon/New Moon on Friday. It felt like the message was to rest and recoup for the coming days. For some of you that may have been the case and for those of you who insist on pushing through, it remained as another crazy day in September! No matter what your choices were, remember that your well of strength runs deep and infinite in many ways. Where you find yourself weary in one place, you continue on powerfully in another. Balance is helpful and there may still be work to be done.
Much love friends!!