By Loni Wise Reiki Master
All week long I carried an ache in my chest. A pain of restricted breath that felt like my ribs might be out, but I can tell you it was so much more than that! For a couple weeks now the energies tied to long time relationships have been wrestling underneath the surface. These relationships are not only with other people, places or things but with the most important person in our lives…ourselves. It seemed that last week held a certain amount of awakening with regard to seeking or finding validation. Recognizing that in some places where we are looking for someone else to point us in the “right” direction. Of course this need for validation can sometimes be created from a lack of healing around these relationships. It seemed that many times this week the energy would spike with memories of words exchanged or unexpected behavior from loved ones bringing up anger and fear. Amidst the ebb and flow of these intense emotions, there was also the cycle of a new moon and the welcoming love of the Mother energy, ready to love and embrace us to our truest hearts.
Validation appeared in two ways last week, one was of those of you seeking validation and the other was those who found validation. Seeking validation can be part of an energy I call “the trunk-monkey brain”, a playful and sometimes elusive energy that will duck in and out of your ability to feel confident and empowered. Trunk-Monkey Brain can be quite the trickster when you are in a space of making important decisions, especially when it is a logical or life decision you make from your heart. The ego steps in, puts on the monkey suit, and begins to drag you through all the reasons why this may be a bad, dangerous, fearful, without guarantee, decision and all the possible outcomes that could happen. In reality, some of the reasons at the core may be valid depending on the kind of decision you needed to make, however, remember, the fear mongering that happens during this process are stories of things that may never come to pass. Also remember that you have your own innate ability to feel your truth, so when an opportunity presents itself to you and your heart answers loudly, take some time to sit with it (pray, meditate, vision board, etc). The facts you recover from the logical brain are the supporting evidence that the heart knows best and that you can trust your decision through and through.
Sometimes your confidence can be undermined by a lack of healing from past relationships/friendships. You may have found yourself swarmed with memories of someone close to you or someone you lost either emotionally or released from the physical world. Some of you may have required some healing for yourself, and the trusting relationship you hold within your own heart. When these memories arise from the depth of the heart it can be a challenge to know where you stand because they often show up with anger and sadness. When these emotions take up residence within you, they do not allow for other emotions like joy or happiness to come in, which also strongly regulates your ability to experience pleasure in all things and so you question everything and shake your confidence when making decisions from the heart. Occasionally there are energetic cords that attach themselves within your different energy centers and connect you to someone else. These can deeply impede your ability to heal and move into new relationships without the same energy developing again. These cords can be, and should be, dissolved in a very gentle and healing way either on your own if you are comfortable with the process or facilitated by a trusted spiritual or energy practitioner. This process will help you gain empowerment through the release of stagnant emotional energy.
The new moon last Friday brought with it new insights and mother energy. It seemed that there was a calling to be connected to the body through the pathway of the earth. There was a strong element of feminine energy that had been building through the week and then opened up wide for the weekend to wash away the feelings of lack and the resistance to surrender of your truth. These are the moments to revel in, to celebrate the freedom and liberation from the confinements of fear and anger. A time offered by the universe that implores you to take a break and simply BE. Each and every woman represents the Mother energy of people, animals, plants, the earth, the sky, the universe, all of it!! Honor every woman and each other for the life that we all carry in the belly of the universe, embracing those women who have left the earthly plain to serve a higher purpose and those just now being born unto the earth. Celebrate and BE!