By Loni Wise Reiki Master
Recognizing anger for what it is, becomes such a challenging process to navigate. What I discovered last week was that fear is truly elusive of the truth. The energy that continued to unfold through the week was a peeling of the layers around and between the fear and anger. All of the ideas that were in the tween spaces were either legitimate concerns or stories my head came up with to keep my in a looped cycle. Somewhere along the way I was made to believe that I wanted it this way; my little me saying, "I thought this is what you wanted." Having to face the fact that deep in my existence I believed, or was conditioned to believe, that it had to be this way for me. All of this energy rising with the heat, to challenge me exactly where I am at so that I can go forward with new results.
Initially this will all rise to the surface as anger, and you will recognize the pattern because you will feel your heart recoil or try to talk you down but you will continue forward with the rage. Much of this coursed through the early days of the week, in some moments bringing you to your knees either physically or metaphorically. This wicked game the mind is comfortable working so that you would remain stunned and in line to hold this course you knew. In this transfer of what may have felt comfortable, maybe there was an itch or something that turned your reaction into a conscious response. A calm, cool and collected anger that wasn't as potent as before which allowed you to really see what was happening for you and those around you. This is the tween layer.
At that point the question became what do you do once you see this new layer? Firstly take into account that there was a new moon on Saturday, and that the flow of energy leading up to this moon was the rising of the emotional overload. As each layer opened there was a symbol of the loop, something that would clue you in on what keeps you stuck there. These clues are not the easiest to see because our mind doesn't want us to, it is the protective reaction, the, "I thought this is what you wanted.” In this realization take a breath and recognize that this is where change occurs. This is when you begin to see how the loop as had you circling back around again and again. Now the choice is plain to see, do you circle back around or do You choose to peel back another layer???
As the weekend arrived with it's higher than normal temperatures, the heat was also turned up for you internally. If you felt the emotional uproar leading up to Saturday, you may have found it at its most intense that day. Nothing else to do at this point but to allow it to move through. The thing about spiritual awakening is that you can't schedule it or control it, so when it rears up within you take a moment for yourself. This is part of the lesson of self-care and acceptance of your re-becoming who you are.
The week was intense all around but remember that you are always in good company with those who are on this similar path. I was sending out all the love and light I could spare, as I felt all of your hearts last week. Much love!