By Loni Wise Reiki Master
I found myself in a space of receiving this week and feeling overwhelmed by the beauty of it all. I recognized that I am really great at offering to others and apparently, more uncomfortable than I realized, when receiving for myself. So what is it that causes the shut down when receiving is presented? I meet many people day to day who give so much of themselves to others for support and many other reasons, but when it comes to offering to themselves some space to receive they gasp like you just dropped an F-bomb in front of a class of kindergarteners. Last week I felt as if I was offered an outside view of what it means to receive which includes who and how you are receiving from. It is a way to disconnect from the idea that receiving is selfish, BECAUSE IT IS NOT. A way to let go of the notion that you take advantage of others by allowing an experience to happen that they offered you, BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT taking advantage. In removing yourself from the direct experience of the, why it is happening, you find the way to make peace with the idea that you are worthy of receiving and can gracefully accept.
Life has been generous this past week with many different offerings that you have needed and were grateful for, but as of late, this may not have felt like the case. In fact, you may still be in a position within your own life that is continuing to be very challenging and difficult and at the same time finding that you are supported in ways you had not realized until the moment it became so clear you had to look it straight in the face and shake its hand. This moment of realization, that you are going to have to make a choice about accepting a gesture or turning it down, can be extremely difficult for “givers” and can even feel painful on some level. One of the first thoughts that can run across your mind is that you are somehow being selfish or self-centered by allowing yourself to say yes to something someone else has offered you. It can be something simple like a roommate or partner saying, “I will cook tonight so sit down and do something you love”, or as big as a friend sending you and your partner on a free weekend at the beach together. When these moments are presented to you with sincerity, it is your duty to receive them without guilt or shame and feel so grateful you live in a place where these experiences can be shared. There is nothing selfish about taking a moment to yourself or even a weekend or longer; accepting this responsibility feeds the world around you through the example of your willingness to bring balance and equanimity to the things you offer out each day.
Often times you may feel that accepting a large offering from another is taking advantage of them in some way. This feeling is a bit tricky to figure out sometimes because the emotion is there clouding the actual reality of it. The bottom line is sometimes you may offer your time, money, services, yourself, etc. in excess of your own energy and when someone sees or feels that and accepts it, they are in fact taking advantage. If you offer, or are offered, these things with full clarity, respect and integrity you can accept and receive this knowing that you cannot take advantage of someone who invokes these energies and truth. Sometimes the world knows how hard you work and all of the places you have given in the past and rewards you when you least expect it (which is often when you need it most). In the energetic world this could be viewed as the full circle of Karma that knows where you have given and when to bring that energy flow back to you.
You become able to feel the beauty of the world around you and see (feel) it in a different light, maybe even a new light you haven’t felt before. Suddenly feeling grateful becomes a powerful tool of enlightenment to move you forward. You find a way to get cleared from your emotional haze that you can accept a reward or a gift as a gesture, not to be countered by a return offer, but with a wholehearted thank you that shows your worth to the world and most importantly to You.
Much love dear ones!!