By Loni Wise Reiki Master
If I am being honest about last week, I would say that it was one of the more emotionally challenging weeks of this year, thus far. I am continuing to feel the emotional wrath of my own heart and existence press up against my flesh from the inside. I experienced many moments where it felt like my flesh would not hold what was inside and I might burst at the seams with, what felt a little like emotional lunacy. With every tear I released I felt the pressure subside a little, making room for the transformation to come full circle. I find myself working so hard to hold presence and space for when it does happen so I can be ready for it, or so I don't miss its arrival, the “Ah-Ha” moment. What if I don't like the message I am given or if the transformation changes major aspects of me and my life? Well I guess I will grab my big girl panties, put them on, and keep on marching forward.
Transformation is not an easy road to travel. The most common reference to this shift is the change experienced by the caterpillar and butterfly. The caterpillar is following its own instinctual process, it knows that it is time to create the chrysalis and time to enter it and close the door behind. With each waking breath, each conscious release of emotion you allow to happen, you journey deeper along your path to transformation. This becomes the time, like the butterfly, where you have closed the door and are beginning the process of releasing who you once were and embracing who you are becoming. The emotions that arise are going to be deeply intertwined with past experiences and the story you have come to know as your identity. Some of these emotional lines have also been equivocated to the feeling that you are, somehow, being re-designed through your healing process so that your neurological connections and even your DNA are being changed. Some of the deepest shifts you will encounter in your existence will have to be met with a great amount of courage, of breath and a great deal of surrender. There is no way around it essentially. You can fight it, you can deny it, and you can close your eyes and scream so you cannot hear it, but be aware that it will not leave. You are here upon this earth in this vessel to exist as who you are. Every moment of your spiritual growth leads you to remembering that very essence of you.
Change may be exactly what you welcomed in, having had a beautiful vision of what that change process would be or what the outcome would look like. Well, the Universe is tricky that way (or is it the ego that’s tricky..hmmmm?). As the movement of energy begins to follow the path, it zigs and zags, moving beyond the capacity of the egos reach. The message it returns to you with, may not look like the answer you were looking for and that becomes the trick. For example, you might have asked for a way to live your purpose more fully and in your mind that looked like getting a raise or adding a new service to your existing offerings. When the message come through, it is asking you to wait, to go somewhere else, or to remove some of your offerings instead of add more. The ultimate practice becomes staying present and allowing a bit of surrender when the answers you are looking for are not what you want to hear. One practice for this is to meditate or spend some quite time without the ego/mind clouding up your emotions as they are already on high alert. Go for a walk in the woods, sit in your backyard in the sun and burn away the fear and anxiety. If you find that self-practice is not coming easy for you then try a Yoga or movement class to free up the body as a moving meditation. You can also take some time to go see an energy worker or light-worker of some kind and allow the space within you to be opened by taking that time for yourself.
It is easy to forget to ask for help when we are navigating the rough waters of emotional change. The beauty in all of this is that we are all experiencing some level of this change and not all at the same time, so when one clears the shift, they can support or assist others through the challenges being presented. Through this human experience of spiritual connection we will ascend to a new consciousness together because we were willing to see beyond the surface.
Much Love Friends!