By Loni Wise Reiki Master
Last week cracked open several realizations for me about the ways I contract with regard to fear. This opening gave my eyes a new view on the world around me as I witnessed the different ways we all contract in those moments of being uncomfortable, standing at the edge, waiting for someone else to “fix it” and make it feel better. Well the truth of all of that brings us back to the foundation of what we are being led to realize about this journey of life…that no one else is in control of fixing anything for us. We have been put here in this body to live out the lessons and to learn from them in such a way that this life becomes a continuous existence of knowledge and wisdom. A memory of what our Inner Spirit or Divine Source already knows and it constantly guiding us to remember.
The idea of fear on the surface is embodied as this scary movie feeling, as if fear is only felt in those moments where the room is dark and you are listening so intensely for the scary monster to jump out at you. Deep down, fear may be embodied more subtly and without the movie version of a scary monster. This deep fear is that moment when you are making a choice and holding your breath, when your car breaks down and you clench your fists and beat on the steering wheel, or when you realize you are losing something or someone important to you and your muscles contract in that one place of the body that is happy to hold your tension. These moments of fear are all lessons in the making. In the last several weeks including last week, the contractions have been working you to reach a space of freedom and liberation from the fear of your ultimate greatness, of finding your own path to that next level of awakening and opening which you have been working towards. Sometimes when you see it, you to focus so hard on the end result that you start to miss out on the parts of the journey necessary for your growth, but do your best to remember that your growth game is strong enough to do this.
Fear has a way of teaching the hard lessons, the trick is to recognize it as fear and move your energy toward releasing it. There are many experiences in life that feel as if the answer is for someone else to fix their behavior because it is an inconvenience or to make you feel safe, pretty, or worthy. The truth behind this energy is that no one can give you any of those things at the level you are truly asking for other than YOU. It is the human in us who gets pissed off when someone cuts you off while trying to park and steals your spot. The realization here is that you have chosen to be angry and focus on what a jerk they are in that moment and you offer up your energy to them as a gift. The anger is a side effect of fear which in this case may speak to a fear of lack or not enough spaces for everyone. Now imagine if this happened several times throughout the week, you might end up giving away buckets of your own life force by remaining focused on being cut off, that you begin to manifest more of it. Suddenly you feel that each visit to the store brings you a deep anxiety about how there isn’t enough for you. Now this is an example but the story may start to resonate with you about the places you allow others to dictate your opening and closing around fear. If you feed it, it will grow and so once again you are provided with a choice of what you would like to have growing in your garden…freedom or fear. Please understand that you are each responsible for your own actions and that this choice is yours alone, no one else is responsible for your energy other than you.
One of my teachers once told me that in this human form we are on a journey not to learn to connect to our Divine Source but to remember it, as it already exists within you. IT IS YOU. I have always remembered these words and often find myself in the process of learning and thinking, “I already knew that on some level.” When you find yourself knowing, I invite you to go a little deeper with a breath, the same as you will when you feel the fear contract you. As the breath moves deep into your body ask yourself some questions about what is coming up, why you are holding that in your energy body and how you can release it; then, and this is quite important in this process, LISTEN. You will remember what to do to release the fear and simply be free.