By Loni Wise Reiki Master
It’s an uncomfortable feeling to not know what to do or say. A sort of emptiness that sweeps the mind clear of what is there to be expressed. The last several weeks I have been on a journey of self-discovery and I am moving some deeply buried and intense energies I didn’t even know were there, connected to who I am and how I got here. It has been challenging to know what to say to you in these blogs because I have simply been in my own bubble of energy, working through my stuff. Mid-week I realized that I was holding some insanely, intense anxiety and had no clue as to why. My stomach was locking up, muscles tight, breathing shallow, panic energy around my thoughts, upset stomach, all old habits it felt like. Immediately I thought about how I was sinking back into and old pattern, however, I had spent so much of my time going inward that I was not paying attention to what was happening out around me in the world. Interestingly, the anxiety had nothing to do with me directly, it was what I was absorbing from the world around me. I live in a very liberal area of the world being here on the west coast and there is a lot of fear being held by those who were devastated by the election. I had simply forgotten that Friday was the inauguration, that some would be immobilized by fear driven emotion, and that many of my friends would be attending marches to show how much they hate the new President. In my experience of this last week, there were not enough crystals, sage, oils, prayer or meditation to separate and protect myself from that heavy veil of energy. Fear is a conniving bitch and will stop at nothing to consume all in its path.
The symptoms of fear occur each and every day. When you miss your alarm you fear being late to work. When you have a report or paper due and can’t find the information you need you fear the incomplete assignment. When your child leaves their lunch at home you fear they might not eat at lunch. All of these are examples of the everyday moments you have to combat fear knowing that you might still have time to make it to work on time, that the information is there and you are close to finding what you need for that assignment, and that the school isn’t going to let your child starve. Fear happens when you take yourself out of the present moment and focus on things in the past or present and mostly when we focus on future events. These “future events” are really stories we have allowed our ego-mind to tell us. They hold no real substance as they are unrealized and in many cases are likely to never come to pass. Fear is a strong energy when it takes hold though, it locks your mind into a pattern of itself and moves into your being. It’s like watching a scary movie and then feeling paranoid walking to the car. Then when you start driving you are startled by your cell phone buzz, and the people standing at the corner. You see how it sinks its fangs into all that you do.
There are many ways to relieve yourself of fear, but the first step is to see it. All of those out there who are fearing a Hitler-esque existence…know this is fear gripping you. You fear for your friends, you fear for your rights and all the while there is nothing but speculation to feed this energy. Your mind is suddenly taken over by stories you know from history, applied BY YOUR MIND to the future. Often times the energy that lies beneath the fear is pain, grief, sadness and anger. All of these hold emotional qualities that are quite intense and overwhelming AND if you can choose to see what is driving those emotions you can clear out the fear and reconnect to the present reality. Use your breath to calm your physical system when the intensity rises. Journal from your mind about what is causing the emotion, let your mind release it out and then continue writing from your heart and see the difference in the feel of it. Do some physical movement, walk, run, dance, etc. and set the intention before you begin to shake loose what is not serving you. You can take action to be part of the solution if you are not consumed by the problem…FEAR.
As I sit back and watch this all unravel, I am realizing that so many out there believe that they are part of the solution to change. The problem I see is that energetically, at the root, they are fighting for what/who they do not want. It doesn’t matter if they do it in the name of love, the energy is flowing toward fear and hate. In the profound words of dear Jedi Master Yoda, “Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate, hate leads to suffering.” We have an opportunity to move this energy, and at times the energy to fight may arise but no matter how we move through it we MUST come from love. Love has to be the seed from which the roots grow.