By Loni Wise Reiki Master
Here in the Northwest we seem to be in a winter season that is working with the Universe to cleanse and push out all the impurities from our body, mind, spirit, heart and soul. This last week was full of heightened emotions that seemed to pull themselves out of nowhere, to simply appear out of nothingness into a full-fledged “melt down” of tears. Now, I use the term “melt down” because for me, it literally felt as if the emotions were sweating out of my energy, from some place deep within me that was melting and dissolving. The emotional movement of the emotion seemed to drip off of me in a downward motion as it came to its fullness and then as equally fast as it came on, it was dissipate…simply vanish into thin air. I was left there, sometimes feeling like a hit and run, wondering what happened and if someone would be there to help and support me when I finished because I knew that I would need help to understand. Other times, I was left feeling as if that emotional letdown was the answer to all of the crazy I have been experiencing, feeling, and acting out over the last couple, (hell let’s be honest…), years. I will tell you a little secret though, these emotional energies are here to teach us, to open us up in ways that we may never have imagined if we hadn’t been there to feel is wisdom. Last week was about seeing each other, which in and of itself is us allowing ourselves to be seen. It was also about patience and noticing when we get riled up over things and block out the opportunity. Seeing this emotion is truly a gift of our human existence.
It can feel very vulnerable to allow yourself to be seen, it takes a certain amount of surrender in allowing others to look beyond your human vessel and welcome them into the place that exists as your soul being. There are times where you meet another, who you know truly “sees” you, which seems to look beyond this person who is shaking their hand leaving you with the notion of fight-or-flight. Can you handle it or do you leave? Last week offered many moments of opportunity to be challenged by this insight. Some of the veils of personal space were a little more transparent to others, giving them a chance to see you or even meet you at your depth. This grand opportunity to know that you, this beautiful, radiant being of planet earth, are connected to another beautiful, radiant being of planet earth. Often times when you SEE others you are opening a doorway for each other to make a heart connection, to eliminate duality for a single moment (or longer) which creates an even bigger spark of light. This connective energy is the door to humanity, to all beings upon this earth feeling the heart connection of love. This can inspire great emotion to arise from the deepest, most locked down places in the heart which also activates the mind/ego to step in with your protectors.
These protectors can shift the emotion to anger and fear which were also present two weeks ago. Remember, you can practice patience and sit with that anger and/or fear to see what is beneath it because that is where the true work begins. Patience is a challenge when you have all of these emotions popping in unexpectedly and often at the most inconvenient or inappropriate times. This becomes an opportunity to as for patience from others. Communicate. Let them know that you need a moment or, depending on the situation, asking someone to support you in that moment by holding space, or hugging you, or getting you some tea, etc. It is perfectly ok for you to let these energies move through whenever they show up and however they show up. You are worthy of surrendering your heart to Source (God, Universe, Divine Light, etc.), to be present to this life and all that you are meant to be, experience, and transform.
As these emotional energies are running their course, I have found that the best way to handle them is to allow them to move through in the moment whenever possible. Also, pay attention to not grip them as they move through. If you are trying to figure out what it was or why it was there in the first place, and in a sense trying to define it for your mind, you are gripping onto the emotion and run the risk of somehow burying it or keeping some for yourself. This emotion will need to have the space to move through completely so that you are free of the pain.
Blessings and Much Love!