By Loni Wise Reiki Master
“We strive for a way to claim ourselves while at the same time looking out and asking for validation from the people and the world around us. The two things actually work against each other, pushing us (me, in my experience) to a place where actions do not meet truth. I found myself stretching to meet the expectations of others while sacrificing my truth.”
In so many ways it is such a challenge to exist right now. Even the air we breathe seems a bit volatile. It got me to thinking about how and why this piece of me feels off or tilted a bit. I have been feeling a great struggle lately as to what is truth about me. Taking into account that as I acknowledge another’s truth, it also feels true. Someone once said to me that one’s perception is their reality, so even if you know something to be true, how it is received by another changes that truth once it passes the filter of someone else’s reality. In other words, if I say to someone, “Please take out the garbage.”, and they hear, “I can never do anything right for her!”, then you can see how each of us can interpret perception. What I have come to recognize over the last few weeks is that the tendency to invest our happiness in other people’s words thoughts and feelings actually holds us back from experiencing life exactly how it is. We strive for a way to claim ourselves while at the same time looking out and asking for validation from the people and the world around us. The two things actually work against each other, pushing us (me, in my experience) to a place where actions do not meet truth. I found myself stretching to meet the expectations of others while sacrificing my truth. I hold a deep fear around my truth because my mind says it will create loss from it being in opposition to what others expect of me. Well let me tell you, it is incredible to know that I don’t have to hold anyone else responsible for my happiness and I am who I am!!
“Accept that sometimes others will not understand, others will find a way to transition out of your light or your life because they like having you exist as what they want or need from you.”
About a week ago, there was a full moon that occurred and brought about great opportunity to open yourself in some way you had not before. Often times in a full moon cycle the experience is of closure and the way that you get to see the lessons come full circle, however, it feels as if there is so much shifting and working to transform itself that the overall energy of the process was sense more as an opening than a closing. This is all preparation for the upcoming Eclipse Season happening in August. There is a partial lunar eclipse on 8/7 and a full solar eclipse on 8/21, both said to set into motion some very direct and pointed energies. July has definitely been the switchback path, asking everyone to lay down the lies, let go of the façade, and take off the mask of illusion about all aspects of connection. Connection holds a strong bond to all things, people, places, things tangible, things ethereal, all of which pale in comparison to the connection we hold with our true heart. The opening that has been working within you is a way for your truth and your spark to exist as a full manifestation of light that IS YOU. If this is your truth, let it be and embody all that it is. Accept that sometimes others will not understand, others will find a way to transition out of your light or your life because they like having you exist as what they want or need from you. Bottom line here is that everyone gives and receives this energy, and being able to see it within yourself is how to release others from being responsible for how you feel.
“I also realized that in this practice of choosing my truth, that my truth doesn’t change because someone else receives it differently. “
I experienced a brilliant realization at a Dharma workshop I attended yesterday. I discovered that I have been living in a place where I refused to let others off the hook for how I feel. I held a great resistance to allowing my voice to be heard because of the story of fear I had written around how others will not stay if I speak my truth. I also realized that in this practice of choosing my truth, that my truth doesn’t change because someone else receives it differently. While I do not fully understand how to accept this, it is my practice throughout these coming months in order to fully embrace my purpose and growth. Hang in there dear friends, the intensity will continue to build until the Autumn Equinox. Breathe deeply and open yourself through your undeniable truth! Blessings Friends!